I’m 34 years old, graduated with honors from one of the top-15 universities in the world, have a “real job”, and I’m broke. This is the story of how I did everything I thought I was “supposed” to do and still found myself 100K in debt and moving back home (to my aunt & uncle’s). Want to start from the beginning? Go to My Money Story: Can I Have A Do-Over?
Friday, July 27th – 3 Days Until Moving Day
Today, I didn’t drop the bathroom drawer on my foot.
While this may seem like a small feat (people successfully open their bathroom drawers all the time), I’ve dropped it on my foot for three days in a row.
See, the bathroom drawers in my apartment are old. There isn’t a safety latch or anything to prevent them from falling out of the cabinet when you pull on them.
Until recently, this hasn’t been a problem because they’ve always been full and weighted down. But my mind hasn’t quite caught up to the fact that I emptied them a few days ago while I was packing. Which means, not only is whatever I’m looking for not there, but the drawer is no longer held in place by weight and therefore likely to come flying out. I’ve been dropping the bathroom drawer on my foot ever since.
But today I didn’t.
I know, I know — so what?! Why am I telling you this?
First, because I’m slightly impressed that I didn’t break any toes.
Second, because it’s evidence that I CAN change my habits. And if I can, so can you.
On the first day, I thought I would never remember that the drawers were empty (and likely to fall on my feet). I was fairly certain that the only thing that would stop me from doing so would be that I didn’t live here anymore. But, two days later, I had learned, changed, and adapted.
Sure, in concept, I already knew that habits can and do change, but observing myself go through the process created a much deeper understanding that it was possible. And, not just that it was possible in theory or that other people could do it — it was more that it was possible for me.
Although this is a very simple, straightforward example, it illustrates that even though it may seem like our habits are reflexive and we’re powerless to change them, we actually do have the ability to change them if we want to.
And — just to put a big bow on the whole situation — maybe that’s how it will be with the move. Maybe a lot of my struggles surrounding it are because I know I’ll have to change a whole lot of habits at once. Even though it may seem impossible to do so right now, after a couple of days I know I’ll be okay.
[In honor of full transparency, you should know that I dropped the bathroom drawer on my foot again an hour after writing this. However, I’m going to chalk it up to the fact that changing a habit is a process. Relapses will happen when you try to change any kind of behavior and habits (no matter how simple) take time to fully change. Lesson learned.]
Next up? The move. Stay tuned…
Want to know how this whole thing started?
Go to My Money Story: Can I Have a Do-Over to start from the beginning.